happy birthday!

as each year passes,
each birthday means less and less.
i rmbr the time when i harboured hope for the perfect birthday surprise celebration.
i always thought, it was pointless to throw your own party.
it would mean so much more to have someone else arrange it for you.
it came to the time when i felt like the birthday surprise was gonna come one year after one year.
to last year, i gave up waiting.
grim post for a birthday girl.
last year's "sweet sixteen" was indeed horrible.
this year's probably not gonna be much better.
9 - 4 at band practice.

but well, it was a nice pre birthday!
had my first musical band rehearsal.
it was good. (: i managed to catch up and we learnt the new song.
it was good. taxing thought.
but daniel and charissa are good. joel and jerald too! ((:
and we did prophetic prayer and worship.
God spoke to me through Cordelia's song.

give me control.
trust in me
give me control again.

it was an amazing time.
though a short 10 minutes.
Lee Hom's in Singapore and Melissa's going gaga.
breathe the same air as him as much as you can! hahahah.

i figured. it isnt that big a deal anymore. 12:33 AM