jacinth and ruby. (: self procliamed combined group during camp gilgal. (:

anw today was rather. okayyy.
went to study in the afternoon with jiffsen yaofeng and tarun.
at boon keng macs.
bella dropped by.
studied for about an hour or two.
spent the rest talking nonsense online and being complete idiots.
me tarun and yf proceeded to paradiz.
i played a bit of pool
rather embarrassing.
i suck at it la!
but beginner's luck.
i hit in quite a number.
but lost to bentoh in the end. ah well. (:
left for chaichee office.
was cool. i was kinda studying for chinese a bit but listening
and i think god really spoke to me.

do i really serve god because i love him?
has it become a routine?
we can be the world's greatest people but without love, we are nothing.
am i doing it with a renewed love each time i serve him? or has it become just like a normal week, like im duty.
like waht aunty eewee said. at the end of the world, whatever praise and sacrifice i have given to the lord, will undergo a test. will it survive?

now anyone who builds that foundation may use gold, silver. jewels, wood, hay or straw. but there is going to come a time of testing at judgement day to see what kind of work each builder has done. everyone's work will be put through the fire to see whether or not it keeps it value. if the work survives, that builder will receive a reward. but if the work is burned up, the builder will suffer great loss. the builders themselves will be saved. but like someone escaping through a wall of flames.
1 Corinthians 3:11-15

i dont want to be "like someone escaping through a wall of flames" i want to be rewarded on the true praise i have given to him. the sacrifices i have made for the lord.
am i going dry? then i guess its time for me to humble before god and drink from his everlasting river of love once again.

thank you lord. 11:11 PM