today is like a rollercoaster.

first of all. i agreed to go for the treetop walk with my mom and brother.
it was alright i guess.
quite tiring but alright.
the bridge was kinda high up and fun but the one in
aussie is much better. not to mention. colder.

anw. had tuition.
evryone was kinda serious.
i got most of the qns wrong.
im so gg to do really badly.
damnit.
yes. emotions running wild.
frustration, anger, unhappiness.

and just when i thought it might get better
aaron text me.
and asked me to dinner cos he's leaving FCBC.
with his family. which includes shenna.
damnit.
lets see. the ppl who left fcbc and me for that matter, over the years.
nicholas: parents left
debbie/bryan: migration
aunty waicheng: some other calling.
zoe: study
shiyan: no idea
aaron/shenna: parents left

and there are still more which i cant recall at the moment.

you know. i really felt like crying.
like. i have an actual connection with the two of them
for like gg to be 4 years
not to mention that aaron was in 2 pictures of me when i was 3/4
yeah.

well, ppl may think im over reacting.
to hell with them

okay. so that was quite bad.
it got worse.
my mom started nagging when she came home.
scolding me nagging me about prelims/O levels..

like i do not have enough stress.
thinking about it maybe not.
cos while everyone's working hard im slacking, watch tv.
hello deathday(s) .

damn. i need to try to work harder.
i need to control my emotions.
i need to hide it so it would not affect me
or anyone else for that matter.

damnit 2:30 PM