today i pon-ed school.

i went out to study with jo.
i slept well last night.
the best i ever had for months.
i dint wake up in the middle of the night like i usually do.
so i was wide awake when i woke up at like. 8.45.
met JO at 9.30.
she was LATE!.
rahr. as usual. =)

anws. studied. i say it was rather productive.
haha. =) i read a really good book.
its called.
dancing in red shoes could kill you.
nice nice. =D
was fun. its about a girl who can dance ballet really well.
except she has oversized boobs which made her look really weird.
oh wells. =)
after studying we went down town.
saw many stuff but dint try
i'll go down tml with jennifer and try them. =D
maybe she can give me suggestions
tired out. my legs were complaining.
anws. some ANGMOH guys were playing soccer with the neighbourhood guys downstairs.
SO HOT! =) they look australian.
with the curly hair and freckles. =)
cute.
and on the train there was this angmoh cute guy.
well jo, i thought he was cute.
he dint look angmoh, yet he doesnt look asian.
hmmm.

oh wells. i was thinking about stuff.
about people that i used to be really close with.
it seems like they have gone away.
i dont know.
many things happen.
now they dont even reply my taggs on their blogs.
its rather sad. i dont know.
maybe im being sensitive.
im feeling so lost now.
you know what BK said bout crying for no reason?
yupp. he's right.
maybe there's a reason. i dont know.
things are just not right.
im feeling isolated from the people around me.
i feel like there's no one i can trust.
cause at the end of the day, we just go our separate ways.
is it me? or is it that everyone's changing, including me.
i dont even know what to say anymore.
i just feel like i cant tell people what's exactly going on in my life.
everything's so superficial.
i just. feel far away from everything. including god.
i just. i dont know. i dont even know what i want to do.
i dont even know, what's going on in everyone's mind.
everything's just superficial.
what you see is not who i am.
no one understands fully, who i am.

i need to come back. come back to god.
i need someone.to speak to. who can i talk to? 7:56 PM