okay. i've been feeling really lousy lately.
for some reason.
like. im always inferior.
people like others, not me.
they have SO many admirers, i have none.
life's not about love, its about love for god.
but that feelings just natural.
i mean, im ugly, inferior, fat.
they're cute, fun, lovable, small, pretty, slim.
they are 200% more lovable than me.
haha. so im here complaining about how inferior i am.
it may seem funny, cos i look happy just the way i am.
truth is not.
blogging abt this is lame,
no one will care, they think its a game.


ppl say its not true, that im not fat.
in their minds, they're like"HAHA, its a fact"
i know what they think,
im not just an empty drink.
blogging about what i feel,
to ppl it may seem unreal.
that im trying to be pathetic,
so people will be sympathetic.
but thats not true, i blog abt what i feel.
as real as you, they're all true.
it stabs me when ppl laugh abt me,
i act like HAHA, thats funny.
but truth it, inside it hurts,
like a knife stabbing me in spurts.
i see someone slim, i comment abt their dressing.
who am i to judge, well, at least they have the bod.
what do i have, nothing in side out.
i have a ugly personality,
one that is SO NOT miss congenality.
im fat and ugly.
HAHA, ppl think im fugly.
so thats the way it is,
dont say yr body's fat cos in anyway,
im still fatter in everyway. 11:13 PM