much feelings i hide
behind that mask of mine
what you see is not what i feel
i cant show myself. no they are not real
cos people just hate me.
they leave me out as and when they can.
they talk to my friends.
and treat me like a fiend
maybe im just lousier.
inside and my exterior.
yes lousier when they compare.
all of this is just too much for me to bear.

no one for me to talk to.
on one for me to cry on.
im so screwed up deep inside.
i'll never make it,
i might just break it.
dont expect too much of me.
im just screwed up, insanity.


feeling lousy lately.
today was the camp.
it was alright. i love the relaxation thing.
i actually fell asleep.
i think everyone did too.
okay. Yishun Jc is not as bad as i thot it was.
at least they let you take ANY subjects that you want. =D
and thats good.
i'll trying DSA-ing into VJ
doubt i'll make it but just try. =D
tml it'll be ngee ann poly. oh wells. =)
i might as well go poly or something.
I FIGURED.
i wanna major in film studies/english literature/mass communications.
hopefully its the first two.
can i take a double dip? =D
that'll be freaking cool.
like my dreamms. =D
oh wells.
i cant make it inot VJ.
it'll have to be in jc admission criteria. which is 20 and below.
i got f-ing 27.
whatever. =S 10:18 PM