damnit.
i hate it.
damnit
i hate them.
damnit.
i need slp.
its killing me. at night i cant sleep. i suffer. i sleep only 3 hours a day.
but i have to go to school and act as if nothing has happened.
and act normal, not grumpy. just in case i make some ppl angry.
they just dont care about my feelings.
oh right. when need my help then like chaoo nice to me. dont need then ignore me right?
freak.
just whatever. i've made the wrong choice.
no one knows how much im suffering. physically mentally and even emotionally.
please. not like they care do they?
i cant show my true feelings.
being with them is like treading on pieces of broken glass.
something i do wrong. yeah. bye bye.
whatever. im nto treasured.
i wonder if i can take sleeping pills to help me sleep.
i wonder if it will ever heal.
stupid itch
when will god take it away..
maybe never? then too bad. i'll have to live with it.
im seriously burning out from everything. things ard me.
they just suck real bad.
i will nvr make it into mass comm. not talking abt vj.
i shld just give up and go to srjc or cjc instead.
even that is difficult to acheive. given my bad results.
i feel bad.
i feel like i'll nvr make it in life.
why the hell do i even set goals. when i know i'll nvr make it.
god. please help me. i really need to hear from you. and i need yr support.
yr the only one there for me now. i think.
dont leave me.
dont let me suffer.
take it all away.
give me strength.
i dont want to hide my feelings anymore.
its just too taxing on me.
im afraid. im afraid of everything.
god help me. 3:07 PM