im tired of repeating myself. lol.
nic: i know certain ways of mine do make you feel confused.
thats becos maybe you guys dont understand me.
whatever you all see is not what i feel.
i said all those things in a moment of anger and frustration.
i might seem so happy but inside im angry. and sad. but i don show it. i get pissed but i don show it becos i know if i get pissed and shoot you guys off, i know my friendship is gone.
then why resort to gossiping you might ask. because i exploded. no one in this world can keep things inside for very long. and was just telling audrey and i trusted the person who told you guys.
yes. you might think im being unfair to god. im forgiven becasue jesus was forsaken and i have nothing to worry about that becos my god is always there for me. he knows what i am going through. he knows what you guys dont know. not even audrey knows. amny things i dont tell you guys. for fear that you'll might get angry. honestly. if you guys think i haven changed then no matter how i've changed you wont see it. if i haven changed i ask you. would you still see the cheerful me now and not the petty and always angry with you'll for small matters? think about that.
anws god knows how im changing and he is still changing and moulding me. no one is perfect. not even i. i do have my weaknesses and yes gossiping is one of them. im not afraid to say it out. so yepp. i rly hope that you guys can understand. not everyone is perfect. although im nobody and nobody is perfect. i m NOT perfect so yea. that answers your questions? and as for band. im always there to help you. its whether yous ee it or not. im not on bad terms with anyone now. i hope. unless you guys want to be on bad terms with me. thanks.=D

anws. rayson. you keep asking me those questions. who exactly is that guy? LOL. tell me! NOW. =D pleasee.. im curious of what crap you can think of. considering you said someone likes me. so crappy. im laughing ym head off. haha.

to god: help me to be a better person. i want to shine for you.help me to open my eyes to see you. my ears to hear you. father. help me to forget him. i know he is still there in my mind. its my hormones. nto yr plan. i know it for sure. pls daddy. take it away? and erm. take away all my anger. allow me look back 10 years time to see the difference in ym life after getting baptized. thank you father. =D love ya.

and to the tea gang. all i have to say is that,. whether you believe or not is up to you. i wont force you to forgive me or trust me anymore. god has a way and a destiny for me. and i will be that woman of god to rise up and show the world that i have changed. and that im a princess of god. truly. 8:03 PM