i guess i m back
sh0 damn blardy pissed off f0r n0 reas0n
s0metimes 0r mayb all the time i feel that life has n0 purp0se.
i mean g0d has 0ne f0r me.. i kn0e it
but i just have that feeling
right n0w at this very m0ment
all my g00d frends are at my frend's h0use.
filming s0me sh0w.
wish i c0uld j0in them
jus d0n wanna face him
i d0nn0e why.
i d0nt haf teh m0od t0 put up with all the teasing and the quietness between the tw0 0f us
just feel like i m sh0 unw0rthy
like wateverr
i d0n haf the m00d t0 t0k ab0ut this stuff.
just g0nna live my life the wae g0d wants me t0
jus want t0 like jus shut up and lie there and r0t
why m i alwaes sh0 depressed
isit the wae i live my life
i may seem cheerful.
but d0es ppl rly understand wad i m g0ing thru
n0 0ne understands me.
besides g0d.
he ish my s0urce 0f strength.
ya. g0d. my 0nly h0pe

0kae. just rly m00dy and depressed
just want t0 live my life
and just lie here and r0t
guess i m c0ntradicting myself
they are sh0 happy. i m sh0 depressed
wads the difference......

5:36 PM